you are...

You are the one. The one person I want to grow old with. The one person who can make me smile, from the bottom of my heart. Yes you!

You are the one with whom I want to dream, to fly, to dance and share.

You are the one I want to hike with, starting from here, now, aiming to reach the horizon, sometime before eternity.

You are the one I want to walk with, barefoot - leaving footprints in the wet sand, and the street.

You are the one. The one in whose arms I dream of enjoying blissful peace, for it is in your arms that I am oblivious of the world, forgetting appointments, heat and stress.

You are the one I dream of each night, sweeping me off my feet and carrying me to nowhere specific. Your eyes are the ones I have aspirations of reading, it is your heart that I wish to conquer. Yes, your heart is where I wish to reside.

You are the one reason I wake up in the morning.

You are the one reason I find a way to smile.

You are the one person that can change everything around when it is going bad.

You are the one. The one I want to burn with, in every adversity, sorrow, fall and defeat. I wish to be consumed by your thoughts, dreams and ambitions. I want to feel you with my hands, and hold with my arms. I want it belong to you. I see, feel and touch, everytime I close my eyes. I want to sing with you, for you, or just close my eyes and hear you sing. I want to hear your deepest secrets and tell you all mine. I want to be the one to inspire you to take on the world and get whatever your heart desires.

Your eyes, your smile, your everything, your laugh, your look in your eyes when you talk to me, it's just everything about you that makes me want you even more.

You see, I have a vision, from a book I've read. Of a man dressed in black, carrying a woman dressed in white, walking into the full moon, which dispels the darkness of the night. I see you coloring this dream of mine. Will you dispel my darkness? Will you be my sunshine?

jealousy

I’m jealous when they’re sitting beside you

I’m jealous when you’re talking with them, not me

I’m jealous when I see your laugh because of her

I’m jealous when you deny my saying

I’m jealous when you're answer their saying but not to me

I’m jealous when you’re getting a joke with her

I’m jealous when they got your attention

I’m jealous with everything you did to them, not to me!

the best damn thing

if you've got secrets you want to tell, we can talk all day long
if your dreams get broken somehow, I'll remind you that you belong
if you need some place to hide, you can hold my hand for a while
if your sky begins to fall, I'll stay with you until you smile
whenever you need some space, there's my room~you can take it

if someone breaks your heart, together we'll unbreak it
when you feel sad or empty inside, I'll show you you're not alone
if you get lost out there, I'll come and show you the path to take you home
I'll go with you somewhere else, when you need to get away
and when nothing seems to be going right and you need a friend.....
I'll stay

second

we’re in a relationship now. a couple. a couple which there’s only one men and one women who love each other. you and i. a couple who are generally only given their partner in every memory, as well.

but i'm just a little bit confused. little bit unbelief. my unbelievable, "are you real? are you there? on my sight? or just my imagination? no...

but then i realized that you're just an imagination for me. i realized that you're real, you there, beside me. you've changed my sight from virtual become real.

first

I’m graduated! Yeah! I left my junior high school, then I had to face my new school. Senior High School. First day, we joined the orientation. Nothing happen. Just like usually. Tired. Exhausted. Same meaning, right? Hahah :D

but then, at last the orientation day, we met. I left my signature on your book. But you didn’t realize that I’ve done in your book. Since then I knew your name.

day after day the orientation left, I checked my hand phone and read. It was a message. A little message from you. In this message, you confused why did I left my signature on your book. But I think it just my joke, fun.

Since then we sent and replied in the form of message. We’re so closed each other. And at those time, you sent ‘heart’ sign for me. It was so…………………………………(fill it by yourself)

Then you said that you love me, and so did I. I did love you. Till we’re a couple. Since the first time began, I expected that the next, we’re in a happy. Always ;)

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langit kian suram. menjadi gelap hitam nan pekat. hari ini sunyi. sepi. tak ada lagi suara yg dapat kudengar di sekitarku. aku mengambil handphoneku dan membuka pesan. malam itu kuputuskan untuk merenung. 3754 message tersimpan rapih dan apik di kotak masuk.
sejenak, aku membuka satu persatu pesan tersebut dari pesan yg paling lawas.

satu persatu ku baca semua pesan di handphone ku. sipuan senyum tersungging manis di wajahku. kadang gelakan tawa juga menambah asyiknya kegiatanku itu. sampai di suatu pesan, kulihat dari siapa pengirimnya. ketika aku mulai membaca pesan tersebut. hatiku terketuk pelan. dengan mata sayu, aku mulai membaca pesan tersebut:

"Dunia itu indah, tapi itu tergantung kamunya mau ngejalaninnya kaya gimana, tergantung cara kamu mengartikannya"

aku ingat, waktu itu, aku sedang bercengkerama bercerita tentang curahan hatiku kepada sang pengirim. dan ketika itu, akupun tetap pada pendirianku. bersikekeuh kepada pandangan hidupku, bahwa hidup itu kejam. tapi si pengirim tersebut menyalahkan pendapatku, dan membalasnya:

"Karna kamu sendiri yang membuat dunia itu terasa menyakitkan, hidup dibuat santai aja"

aku bungkam. sejenak aku meresapi rangkaian kata kata tersebut. dan aku menyadarinya, bahwa sesungguhnya, aku lah yang membuat hidup terasa pedih dan menyakitkan.

kulanjutkan aktivitasku saat itu. dan tiba saat aku membuka pesan lain, aku menemukan suatu pesan. pesan dari seseorang yang memuat kajian yang sangat menyentuh dan mengetuk hati:

"Hei malaikat, turutilah dan bahagiakan orang sombong itu, cepat! aku lelah mendengar rengekan busuk itu! hei malaikat, jangan turuti dan berilah derita orang baik itu, cepat! karna aku ingin mendengar dan rasakan seberapa tulusnya dia dengak-Ku!"

sangat menyentuh. ketika orang membaca pesan singkat tersebut dan membacanya dengan resapan hatinya, seketika, ia akan sadar. sadar betapa serakahnya dia. dan saat itu pula, merekan akan memanjatkan syukur. syukur kepada sang pencipta, dan meminta ampunan.

"Tuhan itu maha adil, ya hidup itu memang berat, gak mungkin tuhan cuma memberi kenikmatan untuk umatnya tanpa penderitaan. mungkin ini suatu proses dimana kamu akan mencapai kenikmatan tersebut. yakinlah, kalau tuhan itu maha segalanya"

harapanku, harapan mereka

"in the name of Allah"

ujian telah kita hadapi. satu persatu tantangan telah kita lalui.

musuh musuh telah kita habisi.

kini kita hanya bisa menunggu.

menunggu...

dan menunggu.

menunggu sebuah pengharapan.

pengharapan yang membahagiakan.

maka dalam nama-Mu

aku memohon, meminta.

karna hanya Engkau-lah Zat yang maha Agung.

penolongku.

pandanglah kami, tengoklah.

kami yakin Engkau tahu seberapa besar usaha kami.

usaha, tanpa kau restui, tak akan bisa mengabulkan sebuah pengharapan besar.

untuk itu, kabulkan segala pengharapan kami.

segala usaha yang telah kita lakukan.

kami percaya, Kau maha segalanya.

mungkin bagi kami, Kau dapat dengan mudah mengabulkannya.

namun, tanpa kita memohon, meminta kepadamu, Kau tak akan mengabulkannya.

namun engkau Maha Tahu.

Engkau pasti melihat kami, bersujud, memohon, meminta uluran tangan-Mu

membantu kami, mewujudkan pengharapan kami.

karna itu, "kabulkanlah segala harapan kami"